Hitting the Wall

hit-the-wallI have had so many different careers.  It is probably why I like start-ups because I am always looking to try something new and do something different.  It is also why I like real estate projects.  There is something that thrills me about the start and the growth.  In real estate, I do like closure.  In start-ups I like to opt out when the growth hits that point where the next level of growth is not as much about problem solving but a bit more like intelligent cruise control.  Not the best description but it is the time when it helps to bring in some experienced institutional investors.

This fall we took off for a blissful month.  We realized that we could take it down a notch and could still take the Wilson business on the road.  I am doing a fair amount of traveling this fall and perhaps that is why I am truly starting to hit the wall.  Maybe it is also the beginnings of seeing what life is starting to look like with our kids out of the nest.  Who knows.
Angel investing is something that many do without any involvement.  I do not think I am capable of that.  Yet in the world of angel investing you have to make a lot of bets each year for the model to work.  Maybe it makes sense to start thinking about only doing so many a year with the hopes that the ones from the year before get a little more mature.  I don’t know.  It isn’t like I am talking to all these businesses daily but I am aware of what is going on in all of them, some more than others, and of course I am always available, focused and am happy to help, talk and do whatever I can do for the entrepreneurs I have invested in. I also sit on several boards from start-up to non-profit.
The real estate is a whole other life.  One I rarely speak about but takes up a lot of space in my head.  Growing a portfolio takes time, management and obviously a lot of thought.
This past week I have been wondering am I hitting the wall?  I admit it is exciting to have built a new career and feel like I am making an impact on businesses and women.  That feels great. I have always been competitive and I always like to win but how much do I need to win?
Maybe I am describing something that many others feel but don’t talk about.  It is probably a feeling that most early stage entrepreneurs feel.  That feeling of there aren’t enough hours in the day, I won’t be able to get it all done, am I crazy to be doing all this, how do I take it down a notch, can I take it down a notch?  it feels great to be able to focus on thinking about businesses which I truly do love (start-up, real estate, and the rest) but I think that once this year ends, I am going to spend some time trying for a little more balance.
Practice what you preach, right?