I could not let yesterday go unacknowledged. It was a huge day for me. I am trying to take it all in. I knew the day would come. It was in many ways a typical day yet all day long we both knew how the day would end.
The woman who has been an intricate part of my life, our family life, retired. She had been with us over 15 years. She has been one of my biggest cheerleaders. She allowed me the ability to do so many things. She came to us when Josh was 4 and I was moving into being an at-home Mom for awhile. She watched me juggle being a Mom while figuring out how to return to work in my own terms. She was my right hand person. She kept us organized. She knew where every thing was. She knew how to do everything from sewing to fixing jewelry. She loved being with me in the kitchen baking, cooking, canning and tasting. She loved our dogs probably more than anything else. She took serious pride in being our back bone and enjoyed every minute of it. She was always there for us. Everyone should be so lucky to have someone like her in their lives.
I am quite aware that not everyone has the means to have someone in their lives to keep their home life humming so we can focus on other parts of our lives. It is a luxury.
As she said to me yesterday just as she did 15 years ago, it was never about the money. I wanted to find a family that I could become part of and make their lives better. She found that in ours yet it was truly a mutual love affair. Our entire family feels insanely lucky to not only have had her around but to have had a relationship with her. She taught us all more than she realizes.
It was time for our next stage. She helped raise our family and now they are all young adults. She let me know that she is always there whenever I need her and I told her the same thing. We both cried.
It was really a big day.