In my head, I am still young. Not young like 16 but young like my 30’s where I had the ability to just plow through anything although that continued for a few decades. I could always fill each day with more things that most would consider not humanly possible but for me, it was how I rolled. Ends up, age makes it more difficult to do.
I have been under the weather for about a week. I finally woke up on Sunday morning with the knowledge that this thing is almost at its tail end. I missed out on the Upfront Conference which is the one event I go to each year and enjoy catching up with people. I managed to have two dinner parties while under the weather because life goes on but honestly I did have that aha moment waking up every morning and not dramatically feeling better from the day before. My head was fuzzy and my reaction time was a tad slower.
Putting together the dots here is not hard. As I flow into something else, as I have written about, such as sitting on some more mature boards, or doing less on a daily basis, just like being kicked on my couch for a few days, that there is joy in giving myself that space. It is hard to describe but it is about paying more attention.
At Sundance, there is a great line in one movie, that continues to race through my head. “You are already the hero of your own life you just haven’t discovered it yet”. Perhaps age, perhaps being sick, but as the hero of your own life, if you pay attention, you can decide whether or not to leap tall buildings in a single bound….or not.